Tiger and I have checked the whole property and up to and along the road and we can find no sign of any mishap, no sign of anything. It is eerily quiet. I suppose it would be better to find her body, and yet, this way I can imagine she somehow wandered off and someone is caring for her. She has never been a wanderer though. She is a little homebody. She is very careful and cautious and loves to snuggle in cozy places. Where can she be?
It is amazing to feel my whole body tighten and clench. I am miserable. There is no possibility of joy in this place. I said yesterday to Chris that there is hardly a moment that I don't give thanks for Tiger and Bella. I visualize each day seeing them in the cage at the humane society and knowing they were there for us. Two kitties. Tiger has never not had his Bella. I'll see what today brings, for for now, my stomach is tight and my shoulders bent.
This quote comes this morning. I will be with knowing my heart.
|Can you walk on water? You have done no better than a straw. Can you fly in the air? You have done no better than a bluebottle. Conquer your heart; then you may become somebody.|
- Ansari of Herat