more thoughts -

I realize also that this with Bella triggers the death of my father.  He, too, I had kissed and hugged, and then, I got on a plane, and while in Mexico City learned that he died in an accident. 

There is some craving for the flesh of the person, the being, the physical touch, that is agony.   Just one more time, we plead, and the spirit is where we connect.   The spirit we feel, and yet, and how much I would love to hug my mother, father, Bella and others in the pulse of the flesh, and so I will venture out into the sunshine and go for a walk, and be the spiritual pole for us all as I breathe in and out -

Pause - Compassion - Patience - peace -