Calenorn's kindness in letting me see, that, yes, of course, I am tired and need to rest, allowed me to uncover another gift in all of this.
Rhonda and I both felt that Mitchell was involved in all this with Bella, that he creates lessons so we can learn. We found it amazing that Bella appeared on my doorstep five minutes before Rhonda arrived. That, after her being missing for almost two days.
I realize now, this morning, that I have been trying to push myself toward a life of less attachment, and I know there is difficulty in translation of Buddhist concepts from East to West, but I still had some idea I could live with a little less emotion perhaps, that I could or should cultivate detachment, but, I realize today that is not who I am. I am a passionate person. My blood flows thick and deep.
I am fiercely loyal to my "tribe." I have deep feelings. I care. Tears come as I acknowledge who I am.
I am attached to life, to my family and friends, to all of you, and I don't even know some of your real names, and yet, I love what I read, what you say, the love, compassion, and intellect that comes through.
Today, I claim my attachment. I am attached to all of you, and proud of it. I am not ashamed to say it. We throw this word "addition" around. "I am addicted to the internet," we say. Maybe we are attached to connection, to the wonderful sharing of love and care that flows through our fingers that pump from our heart, great love in our words.
Okay, I admit it. Maybe I'll start a new type of 12-step program, one with only one step, to shout to the world love, passion, connection, and care.
"My name is Cathy, and I am attached to this beautiful world, and all the inhabitants in it, and I'm not only not going to change that, but I am going to cultivate it even more." My motto for today,
"Attachment Ho, and Proud of It!"
Thank you, Calenorn!!