Heart Happy (cathy_edgett) wrote,
Heart Happy

Checking in -

So, I get the shot today, and like that, I feel badly. It is so odd to go from feeling so well to not feeling well at all. Each time I hope it will be different, and each time it is the same, but, of course, this is the last time.

I checked on-line today the drug they want me to take for five years. It is Arimidex, and it seems to be a no-brainer to take it, and yet, I worry about the side effects. It affects the bones, so you need a bone scan every six months. I have to wonder about the long-term effects of all this. This drug works slightly better than Tamoxifen after a study of only a few years, and yet, it affects the bones. That doesn't seem good to me. Anyway I will hear more about it from my oncologist, but I feel I am once again up against an unpalatable decision. I'm sure I'll do it, but I don't seem to come to any part of this with full conviction. I just keep plugging along.
Anyway, sharing this with you, I feel a little better. It just feels hard to make life decisions based on studies of around a thousand women for a few years. I guess the point here is to be glad you are alive, and then, to reach for every possibility to continue to make that so. I have to keep reminding myself that this is serious, because most of the time, except when I go to the doctor I feel just fine. No wonder it is hard to feel enthusiastic about visiting there. Anyway, my spirits are high, and I am well, and I need a nap. Take care. Each one of you, please take care!

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