Pema Chodron writes:
When we practice meditation we are strengthening our ability to be steadfast with ourselves. No matter what comes up - aching bones, boredom, falling asleep, or the wildest thoughts and emotions - we develop a loyalty to our experience.
"A loyalty to our experience."
Jeff,
bardcat, suggests the book Across that Bridge by John Lewis. I've been reading it, caught on John's words on Faith. Faith allowed him to withstand beatings and imprisonment, abuse. He maintained his peaceful place, contacted his inner/outer guide of connection and support. I am reminded of a monk I read about, a Tibetan monk. Released from prison, he was asked how he maintained his faith. He thanked the guards for allowing him an opportunity to test his beliefs. He wouldn't have known the strength of his faith without the torture. I think now of the guards. What is it to torture another? When I read of the treatment of Black people, I wonder how the abusers miss what it does to them. What is it to spend your life thinking of ways to keep another down? When do we let this go? How do we find peace? John Lewis gives us the tools. I recommend his book.