Someone asked Steve the other day what he did if he didn't play golf. He then listed what he enjoys doing for leisure, but I found myself thinking I would not answer with what I do, but I would now say I enjoy being. In some ways, I have no choice in it. I seem to be too tired to even read of late, and so, I sit and feel. Today, I rest in the hammock of feeling fatigue, of acceptance of tears and rest. I am a lullaby today.
I offer this prose poem by Gary Young.
"Our life is one catastrophe after another. Disaster dogs us. I'm
the luckiest man alive, and you know what that means.
Earthquakes, landslides, falling trees. Wind and rain and rising
waters. What the hell, we survive. The coyotes are screaming on
the other side of the field; it's a strange music. The stars are out.
It's lovely here, and like the wind, I marry you every day."
Peter Johnson says that in this poem of Gary Young's "Good and Evil stand side by side, with Young suggesting that our response to them should be as natural as the elements that take turns pounding and consoling us." He also says in this poem "we somehow assert our humanity, as Young does when he remarries the world and an anonymous "you," most likely his beloved, though also possibly the reader because, for Young, writing implies commitment, spirituality, and recognition of contingencies."
I think, this morning, of this writing, of you and me, and the ribbon of life we breathe back and forth, like the fish in the sea.
Today, I am with circles, and how within the circle there is a space. I am feeling circles, the season, the sun, the moon, the rings in the trees, and also, trying to balance in the center of the circle like Leonardo's Vitruvian Man. There is space there. I am living in the space now, the space created in the circle and the square.
May we all be there.
Washington -- President Bush's job approval ratings have fallen to a new low among California voters, as Republicans once loyal to the commander-in-chief are abandoning him over issues from the Iraq war to immigration to runaway federal spending, according to a Field Poll released today.
Even as Republican Gov. Arnold Schwarzenegger has seen his ratings start to rebound among state voters, 28 percent of Californians now approve of the job Bush is doing, while 65 percent of state voters disapprove.
"We're in uncharted waters," said Mark DiCamillo, director of the Field Poll. "All previous presidents who have dipped this low either resigned from office shortly thereafter or were voted out of office. Here we have a president who will be with us for 2 1/2 more years.
"The question is, can a president who has reached those depths reconnect with voters and turn those ratings around? I've never seen it done before because we've never had it happen before."
Historically, Bush's ranking is just shy of the worst-ever approval rating given to a president by California voters -- 24 percent for President Richard Nixon in August 1974, just before he resigned from office.
I watch Mandu now. He sits on the rail to catch the first rays of the sun. Then, during the day, he lies in the shade. He is slowing, resting, eating carefully, meowing softly. His purr has deepened. He is my teacher now, in how one is here, and how one leaves.