January 30th, 2007

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Good Morning!!

I am reading a book about John Clare, a magnificent poet who is considered "the greatest working class poet that England has ever produced."  He lived from 1795-1864.    As he declined into mental illness,  he was placed in asylums.   When I read of his placement, I thought it would be atrocious and he would decline, and yet he actually lived in better housing and surroundings and had better food than he had at home.  Other poets drifted through, and though his mind was sometimes erratic, he continued to write. 

When Ronald Reagan decided we didn't need to care for the mentally ill, they were let out on the streets and we had a homeless problem.  During Clare's time in England, every county was obligated to furnish a place for the mentally ill.   Those who could afford it paid for their care.  Others were covered by the government.   Here we are, a country that was loaded with assets, and yet this is a group we are stingy with as to care.  Perhaps we could view them differently as they were beginning to do in the time of John Clare.  They were given a place to rest and repair.

I read that we are experiencing the fifth dryest January since 1850.   What a contrast to last year.   Amazingly, endangered Killer Whales are off the San Francisco coast.  They have journeyed south in their search for salmon.  There may be 63 whales spread out over 30 miles around the Farallones.  I'm glad they are here, and I worry about their survival.  Prayers for the whales just a little to the west of us right now.

A joyful day of sun and clouds!!
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Choice -

"If you are distressed by anything external, the pain is not due to the thing itself but to your own estimate of it; and this you have the power to revoke at any moment"

- Marcus Aurelius

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Homes for Stonehenge -

Remains of Village Found Near Stonehenge

Tuesday, January 30, 2007


(01-30) 11:14 PST WASHINGTON, (AP) --

A village of small houses that may have sheltered the builders of the mysterious Stonehenge — or people attending festivals there — has been found by archaeologists studying the stone circle in England. Eight of the houses, with central hearths, have been excavated, and there may be as many as 25 of them, Mike Parker Pearson said Tuesday at a briefing organized by the National Geographic Society.

The ancient houses are at a site known as Durrington Walls, about two miles from Stonehenge. It is also the location of a wooden version of the stone circle.

The village was carbon dated to about 2600 B.C., about the same time Stonehenge was built. The Great Pyramid in Egypt was built at about the same time, said Parker Pearson of Sheffield University.

Julian Thomas of Manchester University noted that both Stonehenge and Durrington Walls have avenues connecting them to the Avon River, indicating a pattern of movement between the sites.

"Clearly, this is a place that was of enormous importance," he said of the new find.

The researchers speculated that Durrington Walls was a place for the living and Stonehenge — where cremated remains have been found — was a cemetery and memorial.

The wooden houses at the new site were square and about 14 feet along each side. They were almost identical to stone houses built at about the same time in the Orkney Islands off the coast of Scotland, Parker Pearson said.

He said there were indications of bed frames along the side walls and of a dresser or storage unit of some sort on the wall opposite the door.

Stone tools, animal bones, arrowheads and other artifacts were uncovered in the village. Remains of pigs indicated they were about nine months old when killed, which would mark a midwinter festival.

Stonehenge was oriented to face the midsummer sunrise and midwinter sunset, while the wooden circle at Durrington Walls faced the midwinter sunrise and midsummer sunset.

Two of the houses, found by Thomas, were separate from the others and may have been the dwellings of community leaders or perhaps were cult houses used for religious rituals. Those sites lacked the debris and household trash that was common in the other homes, he noted.

Durrington appears "very much a place of the living," Parker Pearson said. In contrast, no one ever lived at the stone circle at Stonehenge, which was the largest cemetery in Britain of its time. Stonehenge is thought to contain 250 cremations.

The research was supported by the National Geographic Society, Arts & Humanities Research Council, English Heritage and Wessex Archaeology.

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Afternoon -

It is cold today.  The fog swiggles in.  The kittens are asleep and I have turned the heater on.

I realize that I don't do well with decision making when it comes to purchasing.   We are looking for a new bed.  I am starting to think a bed of leaves would be quite fine.  There are an overwhelming number of beds, platforms, slats, pillows, sheets.  My mind overloads and shuts down.  I am starting to think that sleeping on the floor is quite good enough, and I am sure we will make it through the vast array of decisions and be quite satisfied with what we choose.  I see why we put it off for as long as possible.  I recently read an article that said some people spend up to $10,000 outfitting their beds with pillows, pads, and special sheets.  I have now laid my head on a pillow that costs $350.00.  I try and imagine what the pillowcase should then cost for this pillow and maybe I need new nightgowns and then I think I might need a new me to even sleep on it all.  I start to feel overwhelmed and then I shut down which is why I am here with a new declaration for myself.  I have probably 20 years of daily journals in this house.  I am going to go through them, and see if there is anything worthwhile and then discard.  I am in cleaning out mode.  I visited Good Will today and it felt good to drop off a trunk-load of stuff, mainly books.  I have more than I need and I want to clear out so there is a space for the new to enter.  May this be so!!

Happy sleeping on clouds to you!!    Oh, and by the way, I did not buy the $350.00 pillow, just lay my head upon it to consider.  Perhaps it was too much for my head.   My head has decided to fluff itself on air.

When Charlotte Selver at the age of 102 was preparing to leave the planet, she said, "I could weep.  I could weep with joy at letting go."  Then, she settled herself with a smile and said, "And yet, it is not so simple.  There is a place deep in my heart that is resisting."

I suppose that place in my heart says as long as it is here, it wants a bed.

Happiness and joy to you!   I read somewhere the each person only deserves two explanation points in their writing life.  I give myself two right here.  I am generous with those.
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Wow!! Can we each do this?

Article by Joe Vitale

  "Two years ago, I heard about a therapist in Hawaii who cured a complete ward  of criminally insane patients--without ever seeing any of them. The psychologist would study an inmate's chart and then look within himself to see how he created that person's illness. As he improved himself, the patient improved.

  When I first heard this story, I thought it was an urban legend. How could  anyone heal anyone else by healing himself? How could even the best  self-improvement master cure the criminally insane?

     It didn't make any sense. It wasn't logical, so I dismissed the story.

  However, I heard it again a year later. I heard that the therapist had used a Hawaiian healing process called ho 'oponopono. I had never heard of it, yet I couldn't let it leave my mind. If the story was at all true, I had to know  more.

  I had always understood "total responsibility" to mean that I am responsible for what I think and do. Beyond that, it's out of my hands. I think that most people think of total responsibility that way. We're responsible for what we do, not what anyone else does. The Hawaiian therapist who healed those mentally  ill people would teach me an advanced new perspective about total responsibility.

  His name is Dr. Ihaleakala Hew Len. We probably spent an hour talking on our first phone call. I asked him to tell me the complete story of his work as a  therapist. He explained that he worked at Hawaii State Hospital for four years. That ward where they kept the criminally insane was dangerous. Psychologists quit on a monthly basis. The staff called in sick a lot or simply quit. People would walk through that ward with their backs against the wall, afraid of being attacked by patients. It was not a pleasant place to live, work, or visit.

  Dr. Len told me that he never saw patients. He agreed to have an office and to review their files. While he looked at those files, he would work on  himself. As he worked on himself, patients began to heal.

  "After a few months, patients that had to be shackled were being allowed to walk freely," he told me. "Others who had to be heavily medicated were getting off their medications. And those who had no chance of ever being released were  being freed."

     I was in awe.

  "Not only that," he went on, "but the staff began to enjoy coming to work. Absenteeism and turnover disappeared. We ended up with more staff than we needed because patients were being released, and all the staff was showing up to  work. Today, that ward is closed."

  This is where I had to ask the million dollar question: "What were you doing  within yourself that caused those people to change?"

     "I was simply healing the part of me that created them," he said.

     I didn't understand.

     Dr. Len explained that total responsibility for your life means that everything in your life- simply because it is in your life--is your responsibility. In  a literal sense the entire world is your creation.

      Whew. This is tough to swallow. Being responsible for what I say or do is one thing. Being responsible for what everyone in my life says or does is quite another. Yet, the truth is this: if you take complete responsibility for your life, then everything you see, hear, taste, touch, or in any way experience is  your responsibility because it is in your life.

  This means that terrorist activity, the president, the economy--anything you experience and don't like--is up for you to heal. They don't exist, in a manner of speaking, except as projections from inside you. The problem isn't with  them, it's with you, and to change them, you have to change you.

  I know this is tough to grasp, let alone accept or actually live. Blame is far easier than total responsibility, but as I spoke with Dr. Len, I began to realize that healing for him and in ho 'oponopono means loving yourself. If you want to improve your life, you have to heal your life. If you want to cure  anyone--even a mentally ill criminal--you do it by healing you.

     I asked Dr. Len how he went about healing himself. What was he doing,  exactly, when he looked at those patients' files?

          "I just kept saying, 'I'm sorry' and 'I love you' over and over again," he  explained.

     That's it?

     That's it.

  Turns out that loving yourself is the greatest way to improve yourself, and as you improve yourself, your improve your world. Let me give you a quick example of how this works: one day, someone sent me an email that upset me. In the past I would have handled it by working on my emotional hot buttons or by trying to reason with the person who sent the nasty message. This time, I decided to try Dr. Len's method. I kept silently saying, "I'm sorry" and "I love you," I didn't say it to anyone in particular. I was simply evoking the spirit of  love to heal within me what was creating the outer circumstance.

  Within an hour I got an e-mail from the same person. He apologized for his previous message. Keep in mind that I didn't take any outward action to get that apology. I didn't even write him back. Yet, by saying "I love you," I somehow  healed within me what was creating him.

  I later attended a ho 'oponopono workshop run by Dr. Len. He's now 70 years old, considered a grandfatherly shaman, and is somewhat reclusive. He praised my book, The Attractor Factor. He told me that as I improve myself, my book's vibration will raise, and everyone will feel it when they read it. In short, as  I improve, my readers will improve.

     "What about the books that are already sold and out there?" I asked.

      "They aren't out there," he explained, once again blowing my mind with his  mystic wisdom. "They are still in you."

     In short, there is no out there.

      It would take a whole book to explain this advanced technique with the depth it deserves. Suffice it to say that whenever you want to improve anything in  your life, there's only one place to look: inside you.

                    When you look, do it with love."

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Poem by Kay Ryan -


It is at the edges
that time thins.
Time which had been
dense and viscous
as amber suspending
intentions like bees
unseizes them. A
humming begins,
apparently coming
from stacks of
put-off things or
just in back.  A
racket of claims now,
as time flattens.  A
glittering fan of things
competing to happen,
brilliant and urgent
as fish when seas

    Kay Ryan