February 7th, 2007

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Good Morning!

It seems the day is undecided as to whether to fulfill the promises of rain from the weather forecasters or just hang around with a thick dew.  I am waiting for its pronouncement.

In reading the Jung Institute catalog, I come across this quote by Jung.

    "When a man is fifty, only one part of his being has existed for half a century.  The other part, which also lives in his psyche, may be millions of years old.  Together the patient and I address ourselves to the 2,000,000-year old man that is in all of us."

          - C. G.  Jung

Jung suggests we look at our dreams.  Jung admired an Inuit shaman who saved his starving tribe by dreaming of a new hunting ground. Who knows what is there for us to uncover as we consider our dreams, and it is worth doing. My dreams this morning are as illusive as this rain storm I was looking forward to.  I reach for a nugget and it falls through, but that is this morning.  I have many dreams over the years that have offered meaning, guidance, and assurance.   I, too, find paths to my hunting grounds. 

I was awake most of  the night.  Though tired from yesterday, I was also stimulated and I am engrossed in The Master by Colm Toibin.  Though called a novel, it is a fascinating account of the life of Henry James.

May this day reach into fulfillment for you.  Jane and I are working on my time of radiation.  I balk each time at going in, and then, when I do, I enjoy reading the news.

Happy Day to You!!

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A trail -

Hansel and Gretel left a path of crumbs when they entered into the forest and they were children.

Florida has decided a paper trail is needed when we vote and is eliminating the paperless void of voting machines.

Why then has this administration sent 363 tons of cash into Iraq?  Is that the only way to get things done?  Are you paid in cash?   Probably not because then there would be no record of it, and you probably wouldn't pay taxes on it.  There are 2000 pounds in a ton and we sent 363 tons of cash.   That certainly seems like tons of trust, from which a pound or two might easily be removed. 

 US Sent Pallets of Cash to Baghdad
    By Jeremy Pelofsky

    Tuesday 07 February 2007

    The U.S. Federal Reserve sent record payouts of more than $4 billion in cash to Baghdad on giant pallets aboard military planes shortly before the United States gave control back to Iraqis, lawmakers said on Tuesday.

    The money, which had been held by the United States, came from Iraqi oil exports, surplus dollars from the U.N.-run oil-for-food program and frozen assets belonging to the ousted Saddam Hussein regime.

    Bills weighing a total of 363 tons were loaded onto military aircraft in the largest cash shipments ever made by the Federal Reserve, said Rep. Henry Waxman, chairman of the House of Representatives Committee on Oversight and Government Reform.

    "Who in their right mind would send 363 tons of cash into a war zone? But that's exactly what our government did," the California Democrat said during a hearing reviewing possible waste, fraud and abuse of funds in Iraq.

    On December 12, 2003, $1.5 billion was shipped to Iraq, initially "the largest pay out of U.S. currency in Fed history," according to an e-mail cited by committee members.

    It was followed by more than $2.4 billion on June 22, 2004, and $1.6 billion three days later. The CPA turned over sovereignty on June 28.

    Paul Bremer, who as the administrator of the Coalition Provisional Authority ran Iraq after initial combat operations ended, said the enormous shipments were done at the request of the Iraqi minister of finance.

    "He said, 'I am concerned that I will not have the money to support the Iraqi government expenses for the first couple of months after we are sovereign. We won't have the mechanisms in place, I won't know how to get the money here,"' Bremer said.

    "So these shipments were made at the explicit request of the Iraqi minister of finance to forward fund government expenses, a perfectly, seems to me, legitimate use of his money," Bremer told lawmakers.

    Where's the Money?

    Democrats led by Waxman also questioned whether the lack of oversight of $12 billion in Iraqi money that was disbursed by Bremer and the CPA somehow enabled insurgents to get their hands on the funds, possibly through falsifying names on the government payroll.

    "I have no knowledge of monies being diverted. I would certainly be concerned if I thought they were," Bremer said. He pointed out that the problem of fake names on the payroll existed before the U.S.-led invasion.

    The special inspector general for Iraqi reconstruction, Stuart Bowen, said in a January 2005 report that $8.8 billion was unaccounted for after being given to the Iraqi ministries.

    "We were in the middle of a war, working in very difficult conditions, and we had to move quickly to get this Iraqi money working for the Iraqi people," Bremer told lawmakers. He said there was no banking system and it would have been impossible to apply modern accounting standards in the midst of a war.

    "I acknowledge that I made mistakes and that, with the benefit of hindsight, I would have made some decisions differently," Bremer said.

    Republicans argued that Bremer and the CPA staff did the best they could under the circumstances and accused Democrats of trying to score political points over the increasingly unpopular Iraq war.

    "We are in a war against terrorists, to have a blame meeting isn't, in my opinion, constructive," said Rep. Dan Burton, an Indiana Republican.


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What joy it is to be in the body -

Be In Your Body

Most of the time we go through the day, through our activities, our work, our relationships, our conversations, and very rarely do we ground ourselves in an awareness of our bodies. We are lost in our thoughts, our feelings, our emotions, our stories, our plans. A very simple guide or check on this state of being lost is to pay attention to those times when you feel like you are rushing. Rushing does not have to do with speed. You can rush moving slowly, and you can rush moving quickly. We are rushing when we feel as if we are toppling forward. Our minds run ahead of ourselves; they are out there where we want to get to, instead of being settled back in our bodies. The feeling of rushing is good feedback. Whenever we are not present, right then, in that situation, we should stop and take a few deep breaths. Settle into the body again. Feel yourself sitting. Feel the step of the walk. Be in your body.

The Buddha made a very powerful statement about this: "Mindfulness of the body leads to nirvana." Such awareness is not a superficial practice. Mindfulness of the body keeps us present.

        --Joseph Goldstein, in Transforming the Mind, Healing the World

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less so in Marin -

Today someone told me of a book called The Lonely Patient: How We Experience Illness by Michael Stein.  It sounds like a beautifully created book and my friend said she had not thought of how lonely I must have been.  Exactly the opposite, I said.  I was inundated with fun things to do.  I didn't have the energy for all that was offered, all of it fun - massage, hypnotherapy, art class, on and on.   Marin Cancer Care really has come together to create as fulfilling and environment as they can to lead to healing.  May their philosophy spread.  

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Evening -

I am enjoying the sound of rain.


"We must not allow the clock and the calendar to blind us to the fact that each moment of life is a miracle and mystery."

H. G. Wells (1866 - 1946)?

Enjoy your nights and days!!

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Rumi -

        "Let the waters settle
            you will see stars and moon
                mirrored in your Being."

                                -- Rumi