March 7th, 2007

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Good Morning!!

I request prayers for Tom and Gloria.   Tom was moved from critical care but still could use some lovely visualizations of healing and getting his blood cell counts up.  He fell and needed a hip replacement and it will be a long haul to heal.   Gloria is there in support and we all know how hard it is to be the one feeling fear and concern and struggling to stay cheerful and be there for another and still be there for one's self.  Prayers for both, and All!

Jane and I had a wonderful discussion this morning.  I think we are both feeling change, and taking time to feel the change and honor it more fully.  I have some thinking to do before I say more than that.   I feel big shifts and I am considering on what that  means for me.

I will say this.  I see again how we may unconsciously hold onto old wounds that have nothing to do with what is happening now.    I led a section of the Rosen movement yesterday and came up to a place in myself where I wanted to keep moving,  feeling that if I stopped, I couldn't get going again.  A woman who, five years ago, went through the same breast cancer treatment as I, shared that she thinks part of it may be that we couldn't stop on the treatment program.  We kept ourselves going by not stopping, and so now we struggle with the "pause," and what it means for us.

My sense is that for many of us there is a concern about stopping.  What will happen?   How will we re-start and I could hear what she was saying about what changes might have occurred in me in that intense year-long treatment as to trust on stopping and starting.

I came to Rosen movement because I felt frozen.  I think I am thawing, and in that, I struggle now with feeling my natural internal rhythm as it is now and of course it is continually changing, and integrating my natural rhythm into a group, the world.

What came up for me yesterday was how hard it was for me to learn to skip.   Somehow that odd little bounce was a challenge for me and I remember my parents working with me, trying to teach me.  Around and around the living room we went.  I was thinking it was a requirement to "graduate" kindergarten, though I remember now the house and think it might have been first grade.  I see my parents trying to teach me something that may be natural, but, for me, the more it became necessity, the more it became harder and harder for me to "get."   I think what I may, upon reflection, have gotten from yesterday is that I do have rhythm, and that child of then is not the adult of now.  I can relax.  There is no trying, only doing, and, as I type this, I feel something letting go.  I can skip and I love to skip and maybe in the skip is a pause and maybe that is what I reach for now. 

I have been struggling with the balance of spontaneity and planning.  I know the value of intention.  I see that it is difficult to fulfill what doesn't exist as desire.  Perhaps yesterday I found a new place in myself.   Something nudged and I feel a loosening today, an opening, acceptance.   Acceptance!   What a concept.   Isn't that what is is all about?   Acceptance.   Suffering is wanting things to be different than they are and yet how many of us are able to truly accept ourselves as we are?

The clouds are moving in.  I welcome them today.  I welcome the clouds in myself as they prepare a blanket of reception to say, "Receive.  You are born again each day.   Borne.  You are borne.  Play!"
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The Ides of March!!

Today is the day that Julius Caesar was assassinated in Rome in 44 BC.  

I'm not sure why this has meaning for me, but I always seem to perk up on this day as to awareness and history and Shakespearean plays!
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California steps up to Iowa -

The California Presidential Primary election is now February 5, 2008.   We don't have to wait until June to make our opinion known.  Mark your calendars now.    Who would have thought we are getting so close?
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Checking in -

Today is another rich day!   I see how perfection is static, and I am trying to let go that need for some performance that I deem perfect.  Let go!   Release.

I come across some gems of the past.    I share the reminders with you and me.


                RELAX. RELAX. RELAX.

                BREATHE. BREATHE. BREATHE.


Well, that's a biggie, isn't it?


Here is Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe.

"My greatest wealth is the deep stillness in which I strive and grow and win what the world cannot take from me with fire or sword."


And there is this.  

        A journey is best measured in friends rather than miles.

                    Tim Cahill

    All journeys have secret destinations of which the traveler is unaware.

                    Martin Buber

"Movement has the capacity to take us to the home of the soul, the world within for which we have no names."

            Anna Halprin

"We do not believe in ourselves until someone reveals that deep inside us something is valuable, worth listening to, worthy of our trust, sacred to our touch. Once we believe in ourselves we can risk curiosity, wonder, spontaneous delight or any experience that reveals the human spirit."

            -- e. e. cummings


    John Daido Loori - The Zen of Creativity - Cultivating Your Artistic Life.   

       "Make love with light.  Create a visual or word image of the feeling of love you have for some person, place, or thing.  This means expressing the feeling itself, not simply a subject that you love."
       "The point of this practice is to use light in such a way that it expresses your experience of love."   


    Pema Chodrun -

       If your everyday practice is to open all your emotions, to all the people you meet, to all the situations you encounter without closing down, trusting that you can do that - then that will take you as far as you can go.

       And then you will understand all the teachings that Anyone has ever taught.


    Andrew Harvey -

       By allowing the heart to break,

       Again and again

       Without fear or consolation

       A space is opened in the heart

       In which the whole universe can be placed.




From The Laws of Simplicity, by John Maeda.


    1.  Reduce.

    2.  Organize.

    3.  Time - Savings in time feel like simplicity.

    4.  Learn - Knowledge makes everything simpler.

    5.  Differences - Simplicity and complexity need each other.

    6.  Context.

    7.  Emotion - More emotions are better than less.   He says that he why we put smiley faces on our computer messages.

    8.  Trust - In simplicity we trust.

    9.  Failure - Some things can never be made simple.

    10. The One - Simplicity is about subtracting the obvious, and adding the meaningful.

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Skipping -

I look up the definition of the word "skip"  and take this from   What a complex word it is.

It can mean to bound or to pass by something or to flee or miss or omit.  It is an amazing word.

Now I think of Skippy Peanut Butter.  There is that too.

Skip -

1. to move in a light, springy manner by bounding forward with alternate hops on each foot.
2. to pass from one point, thing, subject, etc., to another, disregarding or omitting what intervenes: He skipped through the book quickly.
3. to go away hastily and secretly; flee without notice.
4. Education. to be advanced two or more classes or grades at once.
5. to ricochet or bounce along a surface: The stone skipped over the lake.
–verb (used with object)
6. to jump lightly over: The horse skipped the fence.
7. to pass over without reading, noting, acting, etc.: He skipped the bad parts.
8. to miss or omit (one of a repeated series of rhythmic actions): My heart skipped a beat.
9. to be absent from; avoid attendance at: to skip a school class.
10. to send (a missile) ricocheting along a surface.
11. Informal. to leave hastily and secretly or to flee from (a place): They skipped town.
12. a skipping movement; a light jump or bounce.
13. a gait marked by such jumps.
14. a passing from one point or thing to another, with disregard of what intervenes: a quick skip through Europe.
15. Music. a melodic interval greater than a second.
16. a natural depression below the surface of a planed board.
17. Informal. a person who has absconded in order to avoid paying debts or meeting other financial responsibilities.
18. skip out on, Informal. to flee or abandon; desert: He skipped out on his wife and two children.