April 24th, 2007

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Good Morning!

Jane and I continue to work to refine what we are trying to say in this book and how we say it.  It is so true that the intial outpouring is easy and fun,and this part, too, is fun, and it is at a different level.  It is a puzzle we are trying to put together and these last pieces continue to be  puzzling and illusive.

It seems there is a "rogue" seal on the Sonoma coast.  It even attacked a pit bull.   Its name is "Nibbles," which is an ironic name for a seal who has now killed a dozen seals and bit a surfer.  Somehow it all seems funny and yet I suppose it is important to be aware that Nibbles might choose you or me for a snack.  I still have to laugh at the headline though,  "Beware the rogue seal."  

I put this here because Steve recently checked out what we spend on weapons in this country and what our allies spend, and then, there is the piddly little amount that our enemies in the "Axis of Evil" have to spend.  It, too, seems like a joke, except it is real.

I think of these words about something most people seem to know, but then there is Bush who still supports and thinks Gonzales is doing a great job.  It is hard to fathom, and I need to let it go, cuz I don't want to be tied to Bush or giving him power.  May we all celebrate a beautiful day, despite the absurdity, at times, of it all. 

"When you fight something, you’re tied to it forever. As long as you’re fighting it, you’re giving it power."

-- Anthony de Mello

Release, let go, and breathe are my mantras for this day!!

Consider what you need to say to yourself today to carry you through.   I watched a ladybug climb up a stem yesterday and then slide back down.  She/he did it over and over again.  I'll think of that image as I go through my day.  Play!

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Ladybug Information!

In case you, too, find yourself entomologically challenged here is some information on ladybugs from:


Q. How did the ladybug get its name?
A. In Europe, during the Middle Ages, insects were destroying the crops, so the Catholic farmers prayed to the Virgin Mary for help. Soon the Ladybugs came, ate the plant-destroying pests and saved the crops! The farmers began calling the ladybugs "The Beetles of Our Lady", and they eventually became known as "Lady Beetles"! The red wings represented the Virgin's cloak and the black spots represented her joys and sorrows. They didn't differentiate between males and females.

Q. Are all ladybugs girls?
A. No. There are boy ladybugs and girl ladybugs. It's almost impossible for the average person to tell them apart. But here are some clue that might help. First, females are usually larger than males. Second, if you observe one ladybug riding atop another ladybug, they are in the process of mating. A male ladybug will grab the female's elytra (hard wings) and holds on tight. There are photos on the Ladybugs Mating Page to help you. An entomologist (bug scientist) can see the difference between males and females under a microscope.

Q. What are boy ladybugs called?
A. Boy ladybugs are called ladybugs, too.

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Evening -

I am thrilled to read that a planet has been discovered outside our solar system that could possibly support life.  It is only 120 trillion miles away, so somewhat accessible within the extravagence of space.  I'm probably not going to make it for a visit but in my imagination I am there, contemplating another place and ways for life to be.

I am absorbing my full day, a day of Rosen movement, and, then, a return home for dinner and a dive into a new book loaned to me by my friend Jane, who informs me she reads the blog everyday and found it disconcerting I did not post the day I was in Carmel.  What happened there was that though I deliberately chose a place to stay with 24 hour internet access, that did not seem to be so.  I will give more warning about interruptions in the future. 

Anyway, I just read Making Friends with Cancer by Dawn Nelson.   Her story is similar to mine though she had ovarian cancer and no radiation, but certainly the parallels are there of fear and love, of an incredible outpouring of love and gifts, and a recognition of the blessings received in recovering from disease.

I had forgotten what it is like to go to the bathroom attached to an IV.  It's pretty funny and I did manage by myself.  Also, she didn't have AC for chemo,  but when you do, each trip to the bathroom releases a red fluid that makes it look like you are dying right then and there.  You might think you would remember, but I didn't, and each time I looked into the bowl to flush, it was a horrible shock.  It all seems funny now and I'm glad I feel that is so.  I am remembering now that in my dreams last night - this morning, I was laughing.  Everything was funny and my diaphragm was enjoying the most wonderful flapping up and down and all around.   I love my diaphragm, and my diaphragm and I love to laugh.   You do know about your diaphragm, don't you?  I hope you aren't thinking birth control.   This is birth release, birthright, living happy, joyful,  free. 

I like some of the quotes Dawn Nelson gives in the book.

"You're on the frontier when you're
        dealing with cancer.
 You're on the frontier of your spirit,
    of your emotional life, and of medicine."

            Selma R. Schimmel

"The ability to give and receive love
    includes loving ourselves.
        Love is the finest energy
            we'll ever draw upon."

                    Carolyn Myss

I like that!

Dawn writes this:

    "In an interview with Barbara Walters, Lance (Armstrong) said that winning the Tour de France was a great experience but "all things being equal I'd take the cancer."  In another television interview after securing the coveted first place trophy for the second time in 2000, he called cancer the most important event of his life and said he'd rather be remembered as a cancer survivor than as a two-time winner of the Tour de France."

I consider that.  Somehow it is not something I identify with, but, who knows, maybe I'm still in denial.  I do see, as does she, that it is hard to maintain that appreciative, blissful place when out of treatment.  She writes of how hard it is for some people to adjust back to "normal" life.  I think the key is to remember how precious each moment, and to not forget that time here is finite.

Elizabeth Kubler-Ross says:

    "It's only when we truly know and understand that we have a limited time on earth - and that we have no way of knowing when our time is up - that we will begin to live each day to the fullest, as it it was the only one we had."

Savor this moment!   Cultivate delight, pleasure, joy, and Love!

It seems some people have not appreciated the title of Dawn Nelson's book.  She is also the author of Compassionate Touch.

I think Making Friends with Cancer is a great book title and an important thing to announce and do.   I am reminded of President Franklin Roosevelt's words, "All we have to fear is fear itself."  It seems better to make friends with cancer than fear it.  What is better than making friends?

         Sleep tight and may your dreams rock with laughter, love, and joy!  I'm excited to see what comes tonight.

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An amazing statistic -

A single new 1/3-oz, 18-karat gold ring creates about 20 tons of mine waste.

I read this in an article suggesting we recycle jewelry rather than buying new.  The statistic seems unfathomable, but even if it were one ton of mine waste, it would be a tremendous amount.  2000 pounds - 40000 pounds - and there is a human cost.   Amazing.

Now I know I need to see the movie Blood Diamond.