October 31st, 2007

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Happy Halloween!!

There is definitely a crack in the air today.   It seems all I speak to who live in the Bay area felt the earthquake last night at 8:04.

I remember being at a memorial service years ago, and the minister pointed out that those of us who live in the Bay Area are well aware that the earth moves under our feet. 

So, this shove of the Calaveras fault may affect the Hayward fault.   We'll see.   Nothing like a little elbow and knee room.

I must admit that there has been so much talk about Halloween now that the actual day appears, it feels anti-climatic.  Obviously I don't have small children.  We already ate all our Halloween candy, and since we rarely get Trick or Treaters., when I restock today, it will probably again end up in our tummies.  Right now I am fogged in, and trying to orchestrate order on my to-do list.

When the earthquake hit, it was another reminder that this moment is "it."   Worry, hurry and indecision make no sense.   Sit.

"The ability to simplify means to eliminate the unnecessary so that the necessary may speak."

- Hans Hofmann

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When we were in Hong Kong, a lovely young couple entertained us.  Yvonne took me shopping in the Ladies district where there truly are bargains.   We shared an enchanting six hour dinner with Yvonne and her husband Tony, sitting outside by the beach and enjoying the warm air.  They were a couple in love.  He would have to hop a cab each day to get to work rather than taking the bus because they so enjoyed their morning coffee on their balcony overlooking the water that each day he would be running a wee bit late.  They have a young daughter who would have joined us but she was sick that day.  This is a family that embodied happiness, joy, and love.  

Steve just got word that Tony has died.  We have no details at the moment, but I am shocked and stunned. 

I feel like a broken record and I am a broken record to myself.  This moment.  This.  This.   Now.  Now.   Now!

Take nothing for granted.   Tell all those you love that you love and tell them now.   Love!    Hold the word on your tongue like a mint and let it melt.  
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Thirst - Mary Oliver


My work is loving the world.
Here the sunflowers, there the hummingbird—
equal seekers of sweetness.
Here the quickening yeast; there the blue plums.
Here the clam deep in the speckled sand.

Are my boots old? Is my coat torn?
Am I no longer young, and still not half-perfect? Let me
keep my mind on what matters,
which is my work,

which is mostly standing still and learning to be
The phoebe, the delphinium.
The sheep in the pasture, and the pasture.
Which is mostly rejoicing, since all the ingredients are here,

which is gratitude, to be given a mind and a heart
and these body-clothes,
a mouth with which to give shouts of joy
to the moth and the wren, to the sleepy dug-up clam,
telling them all, over and over, how it is
that we live forever.

- Mary Oliver from Thirst  Beacon Press

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Evening -

A friend and I decided to head out to Point Reyes, to Pierce Point, my healing place.  We ate lunch at the Parkside in Stinson Beach.  A group of children were trick-or-treating, and it was so sweet to see them carefully, and for some, courageously reach into the bowl of candy.  It is such a huge deal for them.

It was foggy at Pierce Point and perfect to walk and sit and let go.  I truly felt bent with sorrow, and now, I am feeling a bit better.  There is no better place to grieve and heal.  

We watched the movie, "Snowcake," this evening.  It is a must-see.

May tomorrow bring a little more ease.