Yesterday my mission was to deal with this problem of duality that has been a stumbling block for me. I believe it began more urgently when Palin was chosen, and I tried to wrap my mind around someone so incompetent being placed in the vice-presidential slot. I was angry for Hillary, and I went into quite an internal tirade. It was not pretty and I couldn't shake it. I read books on the brain, on the emotions. I tried, which as we know, is a stumbling block in itself. Yoda was wise. "Don't try, Luke, Do!"
Something shifted yesterday. I got in the car and drove to Stinson Beach. The fog was in, so I fortified with breakfast at the Parkside, one of my favorite breakfast spots. I had scrambled eggs with basil, avocado, tomato, and feta cheese, and homemade raisin-walnut toast, and chunks of potato, with a contantly re-filled cup of coffee.
Beautifully full, I rose and went to my car, decided to carry a small backpack not sure how far I would walk but wanting, on one hand paper and pen, and, on the other to clear my mind. I knew my mind was too full and that was part of the problem. I was an overflowing cup and not in a good way. I got to the beach and looked right and left, and decided to go north to Bolinas, so I put my shoes in my pack and walked in the water, which was warm, and walked to the end. It was a smooth sand day, no treasures, and that, too, felt right. No shells called to me, no sand dollars, or rocks, just water and sand, and mountains and sky.
Somewhere in that, everything fell away.
I see that Paul Newman died at the age of 83. He was surrounded by family and friends, and certainly lived a good and generous life. I feel touched by his passing. It is a loss for us.
Lloyd sent me the following this morning. When I questioned him on it, he said, "My Alaskan brother-in-law keeps warning me, she's not dumb or naive, She has used that strategy repeatedly, only to turn around and destroy those who believe she shouldn't be taken seriously." What I see in this is that the Democrats want what is best for the country. It seems for this group of Republicans it is a cruel game.
from Lloyd Parker:
After watching portions of Ms. Palin's interview with Katie Couric, I believe the Republicans are attempting to pull off the biggest ruse in American political history. This belief is due, in part , to the smirky tone of John McCain voice, when he mentioned Ms. Palin in last night's debate.
Palin has appeared to be such a complete idiot in recent interviews, even telling Couric she would "get back to her" with an answer to one of her questions about McCain's history of opposition to regulation. Palin's "stupidity" seems way overdone. Her record in Alaska demonstrates a sharp and biting cunning, not the naivete and apparent inexperience she's shown in recent interview.
Fortunately, for Obama, Biden, and the Democrats, she is also a pretty bad actress. The stumbling bumbling candidate we've seen in recent television appearances is not the sharp, competent, and very prepared, if sometimes viscous and vindictive, administrator she has repeatedly shown herself to be in Alaska.
I strongly advise Mr. Biden not be taken in by the act. The Republicans are hoping, when she takes off the gloves at the debate, Biden will be ill prepared to deal with the intense briefings she's been given, and Ms Palin's own considerable intelligence. We ignore her record with great peril. She is not only smart and aggressive. She also has a great memory for detail and can spin like a spider. The dumb brunette we've been seeing is just a subterfuge they're hoping we've bought. I'm trusting we've looked at her track history and will not be deceived.
In the past month or so we've seen a McCain campaign which has attempted to keep the Obama campaign off-balance. The "patriotic" suspension of the convention due to the hurricane, Palin's nomination, the suspension of the campaign, again for "patriotic" reasons, "to lead the country in a bipartisan manner", are all examples of what they are trying to do. The selling of an easily flustered and not very bright Palin is a similar ploy. Wouldn't they love to put one over on the "liberal" press, one of their special targets? We must not be taken in by the ruse. Palin can be truly nasty and is often deceptive, but she's certainly not dumb. Study her history.
Today I drove into the city to the Legion of Honor to read the poem of a friend. She won a contest and because she is in Houston asked if I would read her poem for her. Her home was heavily damaged in Hurricane Ike, and it was not possible for her to come.
It was the dancing poetry contest and the event is a combination of poetry and dance, so many of the poems are danced. It was exquisite and continues until 4. I read in the first half and left at the intermission so I could stay with the images and experience.
I have never read in such a large auditorium where the audience is in the dark, and I am in the light. I wanted to look up and out and I did, but I couldn't see anything. I wondered if this is what it is like to be a black hole. I knew the audience was there, could sense them, feel them, and I couldn't see them. It is an odd sensation to know so many people are close and listening and focused and yet unseen. I am still with the experience, and also with the enjoyment of the poems and dance.
When I walked up to the museum, I thought this is what Sarah Palin doesn't see, what the Republicans deny with their cry for family values, the stimulation that a city offers, the museums, the open focus, the illumination that art and community bring and inspire. The Academy of Sciences officially opened today. It is a huge effort. A city has a vitality and an energy that brings people together, all kinds of people. There is a uniting, excitement and enthusiasm that invites introspection and connection.
I drove home across the bridge and the bay was filled with sailboats and an array of visiting boats. People were out, lifting their children on their shoulders to see the view. We need to stay clear on what matters and what this country has built.
I found myself wondering as I sat in the auditorium what it would mean to the world if we had dropped crayons, pens, clay, paints, and paper instead of bombs.