Our power went off last night at 3:30 PM, which is pretty typical of the first big rain storm. I made a fire and lit candles and we had sandwiches, so my planned soup did not happen, and we sat in the dark and watched the fire and flames, grateful it wasn't tonight that we lost power. That would have been a tragedy, although I'm sure we could have found a place with power to watch.
I keep reading how the GOP is manipulating the voter rolls, and I feel frightened. I feel frightened about how they have stolen two elections and there are questions about who was behind 9-11. It has always felt to me that those who benefited were those in power. Can we stop them at this point? I am also astonished that the GOP propaganda has worked to the extent that people in this country will say on TV that Obama is not a Christian and is a terrorist and that Sarah Palin is the one with ethics when she is the main one responsible for these lies. These are frightening times, and, again, it is a test as to how each of us stays with our own integrity.
I know all of us will be a bit on edge today as we watch the numbers come in. I feel there is no way we can't win, and yet, if all the votes are not counted in the swing states, then, I begin to feel a bit nervous. I have always felt that one's conscience is the true guide, that integrity triumphs, and right and wrong have a place of clarity, but what I am seeing of the church in Wasilla to which Sarah Palin belongs and where she preaches is beyond the pale. I used to read a great deal of science fiction. In some cases, the religious fringe would take over and it would be the end of the world, and I know it is essential that each of us today "keep the faith," that honesty and integrity eventually do win.
May tonight bring us peace and Barack Obama as our next president, and may we be able to keep our hearts open to all those who are so deceived by the lies of the GOP.
It occurs to me now that it seems that the Palin supporters are often white and working class. One woman said that Obama looks on them as "white trash." The obvious conclusion is that is how she sees herself. I see nothing in him that would invite that conclusion, so it is about her, and the work in this election is to somehow make everyone feel good enough about themselves, that someone like Palin can't manipulate people into believing they are less than they are.
She is the one who set up the divisiveness, the charge of elitism. We are just living our lives, to the best of our expectations of ourselves. We are the ones who honor the choices each person makes. We want unity, honoring, integrity, but it can't be orchestrated until each person feels good about who they are, about where they were born, and what they were born into.
That is what we need. Each person in this country needs to feel good enough about themselves that they can't be manipulated into the divisiness that Palin and McCain have orchestrated. May Obama win and healing begin and government be used, as it was originally intended in this country, for the good and advancement, if they want it, of all.
My mind is always busy while I take my shower. I was remembering the day I realized there was nothing to stop me, that what I had and what I could become were all up to me. It was a liberating moment and allowed me to realize I had created exactly what works for me.
What Barack Obama gives us is that example. No more can people excuse what they don't achieve, by saying I am black or white or mixed, or my parents didn't give me this or that, or, on and on, the way people sometimes do. The excuse stops here, at home, with what we are, with what we want and reach for and achieve. Obama has examined himself internally and externally, and retained a humility as he asks us to unite in true compassion and willingness to help ourselves and others.
The gift of his presidency is huge. What it represents liberates each one of us. Oh, I can do that if that is what I want. I can. I do. I am trying not to get too excited too soon, but I am starting to give myself permission to feel the tide coming in, the widening of the light of the moon.
Where I live, the storm passed through and the sky is clear. It will be easy for people to vote today.