March 22nd, 2010

alan - morning glory center

spring -


It is now officially spring.  I met with three women friends yesterday for our quarterly honoring of the changing of the seasons. Everything is so exuberant this year because of the richly distributed quantities of rain that I think each of us felt unequal to the task of bursting out so flamboyantly.  I woke this morning feeling as those my leaves are still wrapped, not ready yet to unleash to fully harness the sun.

I think I wore myself out this last month with all the excitement on the book.  I want to fully breathe in each comment and compliment and I am so touched I am sometimes brought to tears.   If the book helped one person, the work would have been enough, but it is going out in a wide, generous way and I pause to breathe that in.  I see that today needs to be a day of rest.  I am worn out.   

Yesterday I felt how much spirituality involves the body as well as the mind and spirit.  We are a trinity.  I also felt how there is a drum beat we each keep with our pulse but that drumbeat reverberates so there is a constant hum.  I feel tuned into that hum of late and in that am more aware of the symphony of birds this time of year.  They seem to be coming up close and personal.  A red-shouldered hawk accompanied me down my driveway one day.  I am aware of individual birds and birds as a whole.

I am grateful we have taken a step toward health care reform, but the vitriol and lies are hard to take.  Dennis Kucinich on Bill Maher Friday night pointed out that this is a step that will show that we are not on the path toward the dreaded socialism.  For most of us our lives will not change.  Doom has not entered and shaken the fabric of our existence.  We can begin to have needed discussions on choices in health care and begin to take more responsibility for our own health.  I think it allows us to enter into a partnership with our doctors and I hope to see more steps taken when it is clear the world has not fallen apart and that President Obama is not the devil taking away our rights.

I don't think the health care debate has been good for our health.  It has been about money not lives, the interests of corporations and not compassion for the whole.  I do not understand how we continue to not see that we share a spaceship, this planet Earth.  We are in this together and your children are mine and mine are yours.  We are one beautiful organism, and certainly all the wealth that this planet provides means there is enough for us all.

I can practically see the plants growing this year.  Leaves are unfurling and flowers spraying pollen into the air.  We live in a world of abundance.  Why is it so hard to share?

alan's beach photo

Recognizing Enough -


I am today with why people in this country are so often dissatisfied.  I think we find it difficult to recognize enough.  We are bombarded with advertisements of what we need, must have,  to make our lives complete.

Perhaps it is why it is hard to find satisfaction in this health care bill when so many of us wanted more, but I am still impressed with Dennis Kucinich and the strength he showed on Bill Maher.  This is a step and then we pause and look around and say, "Ah, a step," and then, we begin again.  This is a beginning, not an end.  

Anyone who has climbed a mountain knows what it is to pause after a step and let the breath catch up and then step forward again.  A child learning to walk falls over and over again. They may even go back to a crawl and then one day they stand and don't topple and away they go.  I don't think most of us remember back to all that went into learning to stand and then walk.  

Perhaps I want a moment to say a step was made and yes, it is so compromised as to perhaps be meaningless and yes, the insurance companies benefit and yet a few more will have coverage and slowly we make our way.  Perhaps our exposure to all these sit-coms where all completes in 30 minutes and that includes commercials and movies that last two hours with happy endings has set an unrealistic expectation for each of us.  Perhaps that is why The Hurt Locker won best picture.  It said that life is complex.  People are complex and we need to give ourselves time to rest on a moment, pause and say, "enough".  We need to say a step was made, a teeny-tiny one perhaps, but, yes, a step.  I think of the first creature that climbed from the sea, or maybe just threw itself on the sand, and then, one day nubs and then legs and here we are.  

I want to enjoy that a step was made, yes, a costly one, with sacrifice all over the place, but a step was made and we can all stand on that teeny-tiny step and begin to make other changes, begin to change corporate control over our legislature and person by person, say this is a country, of "we, the people," and we, the people, support all the individuals.  We lend a hand.  We pull each other from the sea.