Jane says she let her dog die at home. This is helpful for me to hear. When I took Kitty to the vet, they did tests, and said it was best to put him to sleep, and I agreed, and they did. This feels so hard, what to do. I feel that in some way my beloved Mandu has absorbed the chemo poisons, trying to take care of me. He is so peaceful now, and I want to do the absolute best thing for him, and I'm not exactly sure what that is, or maybe I am. He is sleeping now. I see his breath is easy. I worry that he is so thin, and I trust that he will tell me what he needs, as I did him.
Prayers for Mandu today to eat would be appreciated. Thank you! And as I say that, I realize, that I ask for prayers for what is best for Mandu. He may be ready to go. This is not my choice. I have tried to work with letting go. I have felt that is what this process was about, but it did not include letting go of little Mandu. That will be really hard. I am not ready to let him go. I love him so very much. He is my companion, healer, and friend. He is the truest and bravest and dearest of hearts.