Heart Happy (cathy_edgett) wrote,
Heart Happy

Morning and Mourning -

I found myself saying to Jane this morning that, lately, each time I type "Good Morning," I find myself feeling and thinking "Good Mourning," and maybe that really is what I am in right now, mourning. The rain feels symbolic as I find my eyes so often full and moist. I am not sad, just feeling whole and rich and grateful, and maybe sad. It is like I feel so clearly each breath, the in and out, the expansion and contraction, the choice in staying here, yep, another breath, even as each breath brings us closer to the final letting go. I watch the breath now in Mandu, as I did my mother near the end. Is he breathing? Yes, he is, and I found myself today feeling how when a baby births, the placenta is no longer needed. Isn't it the same when we die? The body buried as the soul soars in another, until birthed, unseen sky.

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