There is an expansiveness, a knowing that in that question I find, feel, and fuel the balance of useful and not, the balancing place of no-judgment. I am.
I am with Rilke's quote:
“Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.”
Last Sunday, I was at Herchurch in SF as a very good friend was honored along with four other women as crones, as Wise Women, the third part of the journey of a woman's life. I became a crone almost 20 years ago, and joined a Wise Woman group at the time. I find myself today wondering if there is a fourth stage, something more to come, or maybe it is that I am meant to dig more deeply into what it is to be a human being of my age. What is the archetype I crown myself with now? Where is action? Where is rest?
One theme of Sunday, a motto for the crone was "Do Less; Be More!"
Where do I put that today, a beautiful day, when the invitation is to root deeply and rise into a clear blue spring sky with fresh eyes to see knowing this spring day is all I may have, is precious as can be.
In the book Birthing God by Lana Dalberg, I've enjoyed reading about a woman who hangs her clothes outside as though they are prayer flags. I hang my clothes outside. Today I will hang them with reverence and view them as prayer flags, which means that when I wear them they will be prayer flags too. That leads me to that each of us is a prayer flag, waving the air we share. It is spring, and the light at each end of the day is given a little more stretch and ease as morning and night exchange vows to honor rotation and spin. Happy Spring! Happy honoring the joy and reverence you are in this dance that, with attention, we spin with care.