Heart Happy (cathy_edgett) wrote,
Heart Happy

My Friend Kim!

Today my young friend Kim had her head shaved.  She is going through chemotherapy and is losing her pubic hair and knows what is next, so though she has been having her beautiful long hair cut in stages today her head was shaved to prepare for the "fallout".  I did that too.  My family gathered for the cutting of my long, blonde hair, and then, the shaving.  Oh, my.  Why does it hurt?  Why is there pain?

I went through chemotherapy and radiation almost ten years ago, well, finished up nine years ago, last month, and yet the pain that pours through me with Kim's stages shocks me. I went through it, started this blog to talk about it, wrote a book.  I should be done, right?

Kim is 39.  I was 55.  Why isn't this wound healed?  I go through this with Kim thinking of her mother.  Pain!  Pain!  Pain!

I wish I had words to offer, words of wisdom, comfort and support - oh, look at me now - I am well, and all I feel, in this moment is, how do we survive such pain?  I am stunned by the pain.  Stunned, and maybe the difference now is tears flow more freely.  I am a melt.

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