Heart Happy (cathy_edgett) wrote,
Heart Happy

Sleeping well tonight -

It was quite the day. I believe I will have to miss The History of Sake at the MV Library tonight, even though it is complete with refreshments and Sake tasting. I am tired. The medical world is wearing for me, even though they all are as sweet as can be. I have a list of more appointments to make, and things to do, and I feel a bit overwhelmed, and all is fine. When my chemo oncologist checked in with me today, I told her chemo was worth it, and it seemed to have gone quickly, and I was glad I did it. I was perky as could be then, but the drive home was heavy traffic, and then, stopping for food, and now, I feel like I've been on a merry-go-round.

I was a bit thrown by the radiation world. Some people look pretty sick, and I like to do everything well, so, of course, focused intensely during my training. I will come in, go in a room, and put on my little gown, and sit out in the waiting room in my little gown with a bunch of other people. That feels a bit weird, though I'm sure I'll get used to it, like I've gotten used to everything else. Oddly, it seemed to me very few people were wearing the gown. Most seemed to be fully dressed.

The CT/simulator took a long time and also seemed strange. I felt I was in a science fiction movie. I watch a pac man to know when to breathe and when to hold my breath. The pacman seemed from the past. There are palm trees on the ceiling and Hawaiian music is put on to add to the experience. I tried to image myself in Hawaii on the beach. Elaine, the wonderful woman, who set that part up, said her husband was just in Hawaii and it rained the whole time. Sound familiar? Then, he went to Phoenix and it rained there too. That is good because they have been in drought. He is heading next to the northwest so we'll see what he does there.

So, this morning, I went to my local shopping center. It has changed since I last was there. There are fountains with frogs and ducks. The food court is gone. I saw the back of my head when I went to try things on. That was a shock. Everyone says I have a nicely shaped head, and I have gotten used to the front of it, but I have not had the opportunity to see the back until today. The back of the head is very large with no hair. Now, I am trying to imagine hair growing in on the back of my head. I had been imaging it coming in on the top, but I see there are a lot of hair follicles that have been waiting to kick into gear, and some of them are in the back. I never realized how much room there is for hair. Ironically, at the shopping center, I passed a place offering a 40% discount on laser hair removal. It is a very funny world.

I also discovered that most tops are cut below the collar bone. It seems I am getting radiated in a wider area than most, since the nurse was surprised at the size of the area that will be targeted on me, and yes, it seems that lanolin does have the smell of sheep. She says I will get used to it. I'm sure I will. Again, I can only laugh at it all. It is amazing what we can get used to. So, I will start radiation next Thursday. Ah, I should count out the days until I am finished. I think I will be done May 17 or 18. Thursday doesn't count in the 33 times. Ah, breathe!! It is a blessed world, filled with most unusual things.

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