I have been reading the words of Gertrud Falke Heller. She taught the work of Elsa Gindler, and she loved working therapeutically with groups of disturbed people. I am struck by how she used the same exercises for the manic and the depressed. For a person in a depressive state, the repetition to music of a simple rhythmic movement can be a stimulant in overcoming inertia. For a person in a manic phase, the dynamic rhythm of movement with music can give an organized control over uncontrolled impulses. The movement and music work to bring a person back to balance.
Balancing feels really important to me right now as I work to balance my increasing energy with what I still seem to struggle to do. I need a new awareness, a barometer in the moment of what is possible for me. Today, I found myself driving with music of the early 60's blaring away. It was fun. Many days of the past I have turned the radio off, unable to absorb any more stimulation. So, the question to ask ourselves throughout our day is, "What do I experience?" "What am I experiencing now," and "What do I need?" Can we ask, and, then, give it to ourselves. I hope so.
In this moment, I am experiencing contentment. I see the sun out, and I am grateful the hills have a chance to dry. I am hoping there will be no more mudslides, and that the wildflowers have a chance to lift their heads to light.
I smelled the Pittosporum last night. Usually that smell arouses in February, but this year, it is April. The schedule works for me.