I also notice my breast is getting sore from the radiation, so I'll see how I do by the end. Today, was number 14 of 33. Yay!!
Also, I got there early and did my morning walk, and I walked much further today. I rose up the hill for a view of the bay.
Each time I go seems to take more adjustment time. I have to be placed exactly as I was in the simulation. They measure and adjust, measure and adjust. I breathe and let go, and breathe and hold, and let go. I said I think it is because I am changing. I am straighter, and more expansive. I was pretty tightly held when I came to radiation. I felt I had been whacked, and each word and step were measured. I realize all this with the horses might be connected to a natural bubbling that is occurring as I return to my strength, and a more trusting place.
I got more pictures taken today. I feel like a super-model. I leave and they are busily analyzing my pictures. Pretty funny, I say.
It is also interesting to notice my steps zipping along. I see now how I was somewhat like Thich Nhat Hanh in the mindfulness of words and steps. I am still mindful, but at a faster clip. It is quite fun. Now, I want to see each day how far I go as I whizzle along. I love seeing the children on their bikes going to school. Each day there are a few more. They are so cute with their backpacks and spinning legs and sweet comments I overhear as they fly by.
I feel something is pulling me out of where I've been. I am the flower pulled by the sun, the milk from the cow. The molting skin is dissolving. There is joy all around.