Sitting outside, the craziness of all this came back to me. I continue to read reports and studies on every side of what I am doing. I don't know that Arimidex is the right thing, and yet, there is no discussion of it at Marin Cancer Care. To them, it is a no-brainer. They are clear. I feel caught in something I don't understand. As I sit outside, I see weeds have popped up in these few days of sunlight. I reach and pull, stand, bend, and pull, moving around like a grazing cow. Mostly the weeds come right up from the damp soil. A few take an extra tug. I remember looking at the weeds when I was in chemo. I had no energy to pull them. Now, I do.
I also note that hair comes in from the top of the body down. Today is the first day I see the beginnings of a soft fuzz of pubic hair. I still don't have to shave my legs, though the hair on my head is filling in nicely. I am pleased.