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Yesterday Diane and I spoke about the delivery of pathology reports.  Allison, my surgeon, informed me over the phone that the cancer was in the lymph and I would need to have chemo.  Jeff was here, and I flooded into tears.  Oddly, a florist was delivering flowers at the front door at the same time, and called, then, to say they were there.  Somehow, in the shower today, the memory comes back of how it felt to hear that.  We were so sure it was confined, and would be a simple treatment of radiation, and I would be done in time for Christmas.  I realize I don't need to dwell on the past, but there is also a place to release, and I think something let go today in the shower that was important for me.  I added a little salt to my wash.  I bathed in the sea.

Off to the dentist I go for a cleaning.  Oh, joy!  And somehow it is.  I am grateful to have teeth that need to be cleaned, and my dentist is a woman, with an office full of women who get excited whenever they see me.  Somehow, I am a celebrity there.    : )     And that is probably how all their patients feel.  : )   Good for them!