Heart Happy (cathy_edgett) wrote,
Heart Happy
cathy_edgett

Good Morning!!

I sit this  beautiful morning with inhalation and exhalation, and a sense of depletion.   Again, I am aware that I have no reserve, and maybe that is a good thing, to know I am using myself fully and to the best of my ability, and maybe this is integration time, and just integrating is enough.  I am trying to sit comfortably with that.  I keep thinking, is there something more I can do, and I know that I really did try yesterday.  I ate well, and drank lots of liquids, and, there is a place where I just can't push through right now.  I think of the term, hitting the wall, and maybe that is what I keep doing so I know the limits of my playpen.  Perhaps there is comfort in that.  It is a certain size, and one day I will climb out into a bigger one.   I feel fatigue right now, and perhaps, I am grateful I can feel it.  I'll be with that for awhile, and savor that my play-pen is mesh.   Great care to you all!
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