Stars in the night -
I am awake in the night. My head is so sensitive that it is challenging to find a way for it to rest comfortably on the pillow. Also, I still have a cold and a cough, so I decide at 1:30 it is time to rise, and uncover some purpose in my awakeness. I see the stars alive in the sky. I come to an email from Elaine who had brain surgery, and I see that she was probably awake as I awoke. We are both trying to decipher this world of discomfort, balanced with the glimpses of the divine from all the support we have received.
I consider that in Greenland it is dark 24 hours a day right now. Is that why my body is feeling some confusion as to day and night? I order Gretel Ehrlich's book on Greenland. How wonderful is the night!
Why would I question my awakeness right now? I give it to myself. Upright, I don't feel the discomfort of the pillow contacting my head. I light a candle, and make my own day. I find reverence now in being awake in the night. This, too, is okay. I follow my feelings, where I am led. I am led to a little more time here, and, then, back to bed.
I consider that in Greenland it is dark 24 hours a day right now. Is that why my body is feeling some confusion as to day and night? I order Gretel Ehrlich's book on Greenland. How wonderful is the night!
Why would I question my awakeness right now? I give it to myself. Upright, I don't feel the discomfort of the pillow contacting my head. I light a candle, and make my own day. I find reverence now in being awake in the night. This, too, is okay. I follow my feelings, where I am led. I am led to a little more time here, and, then, back to bed.