The sun is out in celebration of the turning of the seasons.
I feel calm and balanced, and in tackle piles of stuff mode, and I am with something that Elaine said this week.
Her mantra is that "real life is harder than brain surgery."
I have been thinking that "real life is harder than chemo."
I have been curiously dissecting why this might be so, and some of this dissection is on the blog. My sense is that in urgency, there is presence, and there are no expectations, only response, and there is great support. In "real life," we look forward, and back, thinking this way and that, and most of us do place expectations upon ourselves, and we are wanting to support others. I am trying to live now like a teeter-totter, and, in that, I struggle sometimes to find the place of balance.
Drinking one soda a day can add over 15 pounds a year. This one small fact is an example of noticing the importance of the little things that we do.
The four known fundamental forces of interaction, or ways that particles interact, are strong, weak, electromagnetic, and gravity. I believe I am trying to balance the strong and the weak forces in myself right now. I enjoy playing with strong and weak, and I am trying to see how springy I can be as I respond and react and come back to center again and again. I want to be soft and tender. I see how in Pilates when I do it "right," it is easy. How do I now more firmly feel and use the floor, and the center of my being, my core? This is my intention for today as I sift through piles of paper and clutter, and begin to see the forest, the trees, the air, and the space between.
Happy Exploration to All! The sun is giving us light to see. Peer and peek within!