another note -

At the models' orientation yesterday, we were all DVD'd, saying what we had gained from the cancer experience.  I think for each of us it was a better use of time, a better ability to say yes to what matters to us, and no to what doesn't.   What I also see is that I am utilizing time differently, enjoying and dissecting the moments, while also holding them whole.  It is hard to explain, but I realize I don't get angry as often.  I seem to expand in some way around the anger.   It isn't to say that I don't get angry, only to say that it blows through much more quickly. 

Now,  watch!   I am going to get hammered today.   : )

Anyway, it seems we are able to view the experience in a positive way, even if it is only the acknowledgement of making it through what we probably thought we could not. 

Celebrate yourself today, and all that you do.    The moments are precious, and lightly handled, can chew!