Heart Happy (cathy_edgett) wrote,
Heart Happy

My Morning Flow -

December 14, 2006 -


I sit with presence this garbage truck morning -


presence including the Christmas cards spread on the table

waiting for inspirational notes -

gifts waiting to be pulled from bags,

wrapped in paper,and spangled in ribbon -


I am a letter in an envelope of fog.

Green leaves give my eyes a screen to climb.  


Sadness today

as I realize how hard my illness was on family and friends.

It was why it was so hard for me to tell them. 

I knew what they would endure.


I had no choice. 

They were hanging on the side,

of a ship that did not sink,

wanting to know what to do.




Chemo Brain


Even now, I sometimes pause,

stymied by a word like envelope.

Does it have an e on the end, or not?

Enveloped in a state where nothing registers inside,

I am the Dear John letter sitting bagged

in the dead letter office,

wanting to get out,

and enter the mobile, with an e,

and floating poles,

activity and action of brain

and life.   



can I let myself go into the feelings,

note,  I type “the,” not "my," or mine -

may I enter  -

The gate is closed,

snowed in for now -

I’ll wait for summer and glacial melt. 




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