Merry Christmas Eve!!
I am happy to have slept this long, and am now wide awake. I woke in
the night not feeling well, and yesterday was another rough day, but I
have positive intention for today. We are all gathered, and my brother
and his family sent sticky buns from William Sonoma which are rising on
the counter, so we will have a most delightfully sweet beginning to
this day.
My brother is going to be a grandfather in July!! Yay!!
Someone asked me why I am resisting sleep. I believe there is an
intensity for life in me right now, a firm desire to fully feel every
moment, and so, I wait until I am exhausted to go to bed. I think
it is also why I wake up in the night. I am wanting to explore
every aspect of light and dark, within and without. I feel like a
glacier, calving. There is so much to know. I
don't want to miss anything. I want to be awake.
I give you Octavio Paz this morning. "El corazon es un ojo." The heart is an eye. Wow!
And the eye has its own sense of time. So, too, the heart.
Helen Keller said: "The best and most beautiful things in the
world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the
heart!"
And, then, there is The Little Prince by Antoine de Saint Exupery, one
of my absolutely favorite books. I give you a key
excerpt.
"Goodbye," said the fox. "And now here is my secret, a very
simple secret: It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is
essential is invisible to the eye."
"What is essential is invisible to the eye," the little prince
repeated, so that he would be sure to remember.
"It is the time you have wasted for your rose that makes your
rose so important."
"It is the time I have wasted for my rose--" said the little
prince, so that he would be sure to remember.
"Men have forgotten this truth," said the fox. "But you must
not forget it. You become responsible, forever, for what you have tamed. You are
responsible for your rose . . ."
"I am responsible for my rose," the little prince repeated, so
that he would be sure to remember.
Perhaps be responsible for your rose today, for your heart.
Peel fully the grace of this day, like soft, fragrant petals.
Expose the heart, the juicy, vitamin C filled hip of the rose.