I am happy to have slept this long, and am now wide awake. I woke in the night not feeling well, and yesterday was another rough day, but I have positive intention for today. We are all gathered, and my brother and his family sent sticky buns from William Sonoma which are rising on the counter, so we will have a most delightfully sweet beginning to this day.
My brother is going to be a grandfather in July!! Yay!!
Someone asked me why I am resisting sleep. I believe there is an intensity for life in me right now, a firm desire to fully feel every moment, and so, I wait until I am exhausted to go to bed. I think it is also why I wake up in the night. I am wanting to explore every aspect of light and dark, within and without. I feel like a glacier, calving. There is so much to know. I don't want to miss anything. I want to be awake.
I give you Octavio Paz this morning. "El corazon es un ojo." The heart is an eye. Wow!
And the eye has its own sense of time. So, too, the heart.
Helen Keller said: "The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart!"
And, then, there is The Little Prince by Antoine de Saint Exupery, one of my absolutely favorite books. I give you a key excerpt.
"Goodbye," said the fox. "And now here is my secret, a very simple secret: It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye."
"What is essential is invisible to the eye," the little prince repeated, so that he would be sure to remember.
"It is the time you have wasted for your rose that makes your rose so important."
"It is the time I have wasted for my rose--" said the little prince, so that he would be sure to remember.
"Men have forgotten this truth," said the fox. "But you must not forget it. You become responsible, forever, for what you have tamed. You are responsible for your rose . . ."
"I am responsible for my rose," the little prince repeated, so
that he would be sure to remember.
Perhaps be responsible for your rose today, for your heart.
Peel fully the grace of this day, like soft, fragrant petals.
Expose the heart, the juicy, vitamin C filled hip of the rose.
