I signed up for the sensory awareness study group as a way to again find the presence I felt while going through chemo. I feel I "achieved" that. My diaphragm is swinging freely and my breath is at ease.
I had an unexpected result today. My scar has occasionally reminded me of Harry Potter's scar in that it is like a warning system of distress. Today someone handed me a rock and pressed it slightly against my breast. It hurt there, so I moved the rock to my hand, and, then, I felt an energetic pulse go through the scar and down my arm into the rock in my hand. It was like a lightning bolt. Peter Levine works with how energy can be bound up when there is a trauma. It can release like a spring when we are given a chance to relax. I think that happened today with my scar. I am hoping this means the healing will be a little quicker now, or not. Whatever is, is okay with me. Today, I felt enoughness. I am exhaling fully. I am content.
I watched the sun set and Steve fixed a lovely dinner. It is a day of discovery and comfort for me.