Evening -

I feel sad tonight, a huge weight in my gut.   Visiting chemo world today was upsetting for me and I do feel that I am not emotionally healed from the trauma of last year.  I went through it like a good soldier, but now I am starting to realize that it was rough and I feel sad and that is okay.  I realize as I type this I wouldn't want it to be any other way.  I do want to be affected by my life, to continue carving out places to hold more feeling, more love, peace and joy, and along with that  sorrow and fear, so it is all right, all of it.

Jane and I continue to move along on the book.  We are in fast forward now, and highly inspired by the events of these last few days.

I'm happy to hear some drops of rain.    They reflect the tenderness inside.