The guy gave me 20% off for being patient, and we all three had a good discussion on the subject. I realized that it is rare that I get upset anymore over something so trivial as to whether I have instant gratification on paying. (Of course that does not include the MV Safeway which would try the patience of a saint.) What I do there is to avoid it as much as possible.
It was wonderful though to feel some patience has come through. I am more aware that usually when I get angry, it hurts me. Of course, the woman who spoke wasn't really angry. She was just pointing out the problem. Why was she in line? She had a return.
For me, my perception on how I relate to what comes now relates to how I will meet death. I am trying to teach myself steps of acceptance. I am hoping, planning perhaps, to meet death wisely and calmly, not thrilled with it necessarily, and certainly with some fight almost until the end, and also, aware that there will come a time when I am meant to drop softly beneath the sea and "let go." Release.
I intend to practice life and death with every breath.
Inhale. Savor. Utilize. Enjoy. Let Go. Release.