Heart Happy (cathy_edgett) wrote,
Heart Happy
cathy_edgett

The day steps -

We are having the inner of our house painted this week.  Luckily, three rooms are sacrosanct, the kitchen and two rooms in the back.  Ah, five rooms are safe.  The bathrooms will not be touched either.   I see now this is a small thing;  the living room, the hall, and one bedroom will be painted, and yet, that meant everything coming off the walls in those areas. Since the walls have not been painted in many, many years, they were full.  It is probably why we have been able to ignore the need for paint.   Very little actual wall peered through.

We also removed the wall system from the wall where it  has faithfully hung for thirty years. It, too, was full of wonderful gifts and a chosen selection of possessions.   It will go back up.  We bought the wall system in the first years of our marriage, so about thirty-five years ago.  I worked at a furniture store and we got it for cost.  It is pure rosewood so was expensive even in those days.   The space surrounding it was last painted thirty years ago.  We don't like to rush. 

The painting was to begin today, but now it begins tomorrow.   Meanwhile it is a chance to see what no longer needs to be here in the house.  We have tapes and no tape deck.  We have CD's piled, when their sound could fit into an ipod.  It seems we are going to be a wee bit more efficient when we put everything back in four or five days, and yet, I just had company and everyone said how lovely and loved the house looked.  It will be a fine balance to put things back in a way of honoring change, and the past, present, and future.

For now, it is odd.   The walls are bare and the entire glass door is exposed.  Some rooms are piled and others are bare.  I walk between them and wonder if this is how it is when we begin to die.  We discard and cleanse until we are no longer here.   Perhaps, that is too easy and I will see.  I intend to envision it like that though, tossing a scarf here, and giving a book there, until there is nothing left and I am fully spread, a flower with petals exhaustedly flat,  and pollen distributed by wind, insects, birds, and bees.
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