Heart Happy (cathy_edgett) wrote,
Heart Happy

How am I today?

I am feeling well. I am contemplative, trying to better understand and feel into myself, to not run away from any of this, and also, to stay somewhat objective, to stand back and witness. I am trying to balance the two, as I look out the window on a day still uncolored, just shadow, shade, gray. The leaves on the trees, and the pine needles stand distinct against the morning lightening in the sky, and, then, there are the birds. Well, they are ecstatically singing and flying; darts spring my eyes.

We lost power last night. I was listening to Billy Collins, and then, I was sitting in candlelight. And then the power returned, and silence was my guide. And, then,the power went out again. It was a chance to see. Do I like it this way, or that? I enjoy heat, which a fire can provide, and warm food, which a camping stove offers, and I love my computer, and I have pen and paper. Of course, there is email but, perhaps we share thought and mood instantaneously through the air. It seems so often Jane and I in our morning writing coincide. What is that? Are we instant messengering all the time?

I ask myself what I need as I wait for the sun to color the sky, and I know I have all I need. My breath is full this morning. I can color it if I want or allow it to be clear like my white blood cells, my immune system, my strengthening will to be here in the ever-expanding beauty, joy, and love of you and me and the intricately simple connectedness we share.

Sunlight touches now the top of the hill and slips down. I bathe the same as my mirror neurons create the touch of the sun warming the hills in me. The sky ripens, as do I.

  • Return -

    I haven't been here in awhile and I return today to learn there is a "new post editor". I start to try it and then go back to the old. I am…

  • It's Morning!

    I've been here at Live Journal since October, 2005. I started it to keep in touch with family and friends as I went through cancer treatment.…

  • The sun is shining!

    Where I live the sun is shining and the buds have popped out so the plum trees are waving white. We've had months of rain, record breaking rain and…

  • Post a new comment


    default userpic

    Your reply will be screened

    Your IP address will be recorded 

    When you submit the form an invisible reCAPTCHA check will be performed.
    You must follow the Privacy Policy and Google Terms of use.